Okay, so for the record, I do not intend for this to become a typical ‘diary blog’, but I have decided to allow myself the occasional ‘rant’. I promise not to whinge over such petty frustrations too often... Besides, isn’t that what Facebook is for?
I felt the need to write about a pretty unpleasant exchange of words I had with a student the other day - I suppose it comes with the territory, so I'm certain it's one of, hopefully, not too many similar future instances. So, to fill you in, the student in question has missed all of the lectures this term with no excuse. No surprise then that she has been on my mental ‘blacklist’ for some time…
vent OPEN:
{Although I had fun writing it, my quick-tempered rendition wasn't really at the heart of the matter, so I decided to remove it}
So, refusing to ‘lose it’ in front of my students, I had no choice but to internalise it all.
As a young lecturer I realise that amongst other things, I have much to learn by way of dealing with these types of situations. One such lesson, I suppose, is that one can't afford to take things so personally - as much as it hurts when those on the benefit-receiving end of one's efforts are so completely blind and unappreciative. So, let me share with you what I suspect to be the root of my aforementioned ‘inburst’…
Unfortunately, in South Africa, tertiary education is not free. And, if you want to study at a private institution - in this instance, Lisof: arguably the top fashion design school in the country – not only is it not free, but it is not cheap. In fact, my own parents would consider it to be completely unaffordable. I'm sure I don't really have to explain my point here, but what this means is that tertiary education is a privilege and NOT a right. It is a gift that so many of us take for granted. I bear witness to it each and every day, and it drives me absolutely bonkers!
If, like me, you are a die-hard optimist, you would believe that everyone is born with a special gift or talent. Thanks to our declining education system, fewer and fewer kids are able to go to school, much less one staffed with dedicated (non-striking) teachers, who are not only skilled, but passionate about recognising and nurturing talent. Even fewer still, will ever end up at a tertiary institution of any kind. A feeble zero-point-something percent of the underprivileged population is afforded the opportunity to study beyond high school level. If you’re a student reading this, the fact is that someone, somewhere is paying for you to be. It may be your parents, a bursor, a sponsor or maybe you’re working three jobs in order to pay off your own tuition - in which case, I salute you!
So forgive me for being a little ratty when you haven’t attended class because you decided to go to Zanzibar for a week, or you just didn’t feel like getting up early today, or for not doing your homework because you “didn’t have time”, yet I saw you drunk as a skunk at Gin on Thursday night. I feel ratty when I have to throw away a rotten tomato, because I feel it’s such a waste.
So please reflect on this for a moment: if tertiary education was free in South Africa, and you were evaluated based on a combination of merit, raw talent, aptitude, commitment and your willingness to sacrifice… would YOU be there?
Honestly?
Think about that the next time you decide to miss a lecture because you “just don’t feel like it”. You may be paying the proverbial 'arm and a leg', but someone, somewhere, unaware of the expression, may not view it as an unreasonable exchange. They may even end up single-legged-ly kicking your arse, if only to prove that it wasn't a futile sacrifice.